Empty

I have been sitting by this blank screen for a month now. I can't seem to get my thoughts together. I have been trying to write things down but my heart is struggling with my mind and my knowledge. It is like two different things with equal strength fighting with each other with no chances to win. But yet, they keep fighting without letting me rest. Past month has been a long journey. I had to travel through memories. Had to draw some parallels and find connections. Full with confusion, emptiness and sadness, this month thought me a valuable life lesson. Something I will never forget. Life is a gift that The Creator has given to all of His children. We do not have the rights to give it away or waste it. We cannot sit back and watch it sail away. We have to take every chance we get to reach our dreams, to be happy, to reach perfection and nirvana. I kept feeling sorry for myself that I forgot how to be happy. So I had to learn it again. And I did. Yesterday I went to bed and I had no regrets. A feeling of peace and joy settled.
See, I won't tell you everything will end well, because, well, it sometimes doesn't. Life sometimes sucks and there is nothing we can do about it, but if I learned something from today, then it was that if we just sit back, cry and do nothing about it, it won't change and it will never get better. So do what I am doing, find that one thing that makes you happy, that describes you the best, and do it, as much as you can. And it doesn't matter if it makes you look silly or dumb in front of others. You don't have to fit it, you have to be yourself.

Enjoy every minute you have. Love your life, even if it seems like it hates you sometimes.